Wednesday December 29, 2010 Every day is different

Today was a very full day for Mom and I. This early am Montie came to see if he could do anything for me and brought Mom and I a box of ice cream.  He is such a kind and thoughtful man and a very faithful friend.  Then Kima, the massage therapist from Hospice came to give Mom her weekly massage (lucky Martha).  I've told Kima that I could fill in for Mom any time she wanted.  She is a very quiet, calming woman and Mom responds well to her.  Dolly came next and we had some time to talk.  Stacie and Levi arrived next on their way home from Oneonta.  Kima finished her session with Martha and left.  Next came Amie (the birthday girl -Happy Birthday again Aim-I'm glad you came into my life 33 years ago- you have blessed my life so)Chad and Genna.  We all talked and I got to spend some precious minutes with my Grandkids and kids.  I have found out even more through all this how blessed I am to have my family and their support.  I don't think I could do this whole thing if it wasn't for them and their support and love.  Thanks all of you!! Okay so then the kids left and Dolly fixed Mom some food and sat with her while she ate.  The house was quiet and Mom did her Mom thing. Last arrival was Michael, Maddie, and Bracken. Mike stayed for awhile and then left (oh yeah he left the kids with Grandma Betty to spend the night.  Mom through all of the in and out was thoroughly in her own secret world. She seems more withdrawn each day and even getting a little more frail also. Tonight at dinner she was not into eating and just acted strangely.  I hate this disease.  The selfish part of me wants to keep her here with us but, the compassionate daughter in me wants to see this suffering and indignity ended. This world will be a little less bright after Mom goes home to be with her Jesus. I often think of all the things she has taught me over the last 57 years not only by word but by example. I am overwhelmed at the many facets of Martha.  I am now still learning from her.  Well, I made myself cry, enough of that kind of thing.  Oh yes, by the way, Dolly, Pat, and I made the joint decision to take Mom off her Aricept and Namenda.  At this point they are doing her no good.  Her life and future are in God's wise hands.  Meds or no meds God will call her when He deems it her time.  That's it for now.  Let's see what tomorrow brings.  Talk with y'all tomorrow.