Thursday January 20, 2011

  I sit here next to Mom's bed typing this blog entry and thinking  how she would have normally been peering over my shoulder asking how this new thing (the computer) worked.  I imagine she would like to try her hand at typing just to see if she could still remember how to type.  But instead she is lying flat out in her brand new bed making little noises in her fitful sleep.  Yesterday she barely even kept her eyes open but, today I came in early to give her some water and she was awake.  She tried to talk to me and smiled quite a bit.  Even when I changed her depends for her she was pretty peaceful.  She winced a little when I had to partially roll her over to  put on the new depends.  She took alot of straws full of water and then ate her applesauce.  She really eats pudding and applesauce well.  Today I am introducing some of Pat's home done squash she brought Mom.  Then Hospice suggested baby food.  I'll be off to the store to get some of that as soon as I am done with the blog. There have been alot of people coming and going but, it's good.  Mom always loved people around  and often lamented over the later years when folks didn't stop by anymore.  She would then say well the kids are growing up and have their own lives and everyone is busy nowadays. She always could find a reason to rationalize the shortcomings of others.
  This week has been a little more tense than  the last weeks.  We check on Mom and find her not breathing.  We have all gone in and stood holding our breath or put a finger under her nose and then she'll startle you by taking a big gulp of air.  That is the sleep apnea.  I know that one of these times it will be her last earthly breathe.  That will be sweet sorrow.  I sure will miss my little Mama but even more I'll be almost jealous because she is in glory with her Lord and all her loved ones.  She will no longer have a curved spine and skinny legs (lol) but she will be perfect and at last where she wants to be.  So please pray for wisdom for me as I care for her and that her passing will be soon.  I can tell in the way she looks always toward the ceiling and will smile and point that she is more than ready.  Talk later.  Everyone have a blessed day.