January 15, 2011 Another Day Closer

  Hello everyone, I want to know if the snow is ever going to stop?  I swear that it hasn't gone a day without snowing for at least 2 weeks!  In all things give thanks!!  Well I didn't blog last night because Amie came over to the house and we had pizza and salad and then we all tag teamed on Mom to get her to eat some dinner.  Her appetite is declining.  Amie ended up spending the night and she and Shannon stayed up until 2 pm giggling and acting like kids.  It does this Mother's heart good to see her children still enjoying each other.  Poor Amie had to get up at 5am to be home to be with Genna because Chad had to speak at his men's group.  How'd you do today Amie?
   So on back to Mom - she seems to be declining rather quickly.  She is sleeping a lot - at least half of the day.  For the last couple of days she won't feed herself.  I have to feed her like a baby.  Her speech has declined also.  She will come out with some phrases that one can understand but usually it is just babbling. She will sit at the table and just close her eyes or put her head down like she is too exhausted to keep it upright. I know that this sounds so depressing but, it's just part of the disease.  It is just happening so fast.  I'll tell you one thing Mom may be slipping quickly but, when I pray with her she becomes so peaceful and always, always smiles.  I pray with her every night before she goes to sleep and I have never failed yet to see her smile.  The woman is still a humble child of God who finds her peace and strength in her Heavenly Father.  If she is having a "fit", the only way I can explain what happens to her, I start singing a hymn to her and she always quiets down.  Tonight she said in words I could understand, "I'm ready".  She just wants to go home. I know that I will miss seeing her everyday and giving her a hug and kiss whenever I want to but, I know I'll see her again someday.  She will be whole and in perfect health.  She has worked all of her life towards this end, she just wants to see her Jesus.  Who am I to be sad or selfish and want to keep her with me. I want to tell everyone how honored I feel at the way you have followed the blog and the awesome things you have said.  I know that I have one special, little Mama but to hear from others just reinforces it for me.  I thank all who have contributed to the "Honoring Martha" section of this whole endeavor.  I read everyone of them over and over and weep no matter how many times I read them (you do know that crying is good for the soul).  So thank you to everyone.  Please know that we have all been blessed to have Martha in our lives and she would tell you if she could how blessed and honored she has felt to have you as a part of her life.  God has given her a long and happy life -even when she was handed lemons she knew how to make lemonade-and she would never trade it for anything.  Rejoice Martha's getting ready to go home!!!