January 21, 2011 Funny how things work!!

  The house is quiet and at rest this morning.  All I really hear is the dog yawn once in awhile and the sounds of loons coming from Mom's bedroom.  That CD seems to keep her rested and content.  I know it makes me sleepy everytime I go to her room.  This morning I got up early (well, Tom not as early as you) and Mom was uncovered and lying there with her eyes opened.  I went over to her and asked her if she was trying to freeze.  She kind of smiled at me.  As I was covering her and readjusting pillows and rolled up towels to take pressure off from her elbows, I thought of the many times she would come into our rooms and check on us and readjust our blankets so we would be comfortable and warm.  Or all those times when we were sick (and we always stayed on the couch where she could be at our beck and call) and she would bring us something to drink or check our forehead to check our temperatures.  It just struck me how life is really a circle, she took care of me and now I am doing the same for her (even changing her diapers).  I have said many a time that if Mom were her age now and I got sick she would still take care of me.  Just struck me this morning how funny things are sometimes.
  So on to Mom, she really hasn't changed much.  She lies, not always still, and sleeps alot (or at least we think she is sleeping, who knows she may be just listening to what is going on around here-told you she was always nosey!).  She still takes some pureed food.  Actually, last night I gave her carrots and she didn't seem too impressed and some mixed fruit. She sure didn't gobble it up like she does the applesauce.  Today I told her we'll try green beans and applesauce and bananas.  Other than that she takes quite a bit of water from a large medicine dropper I found at the pharmacy yesterday.  She will still drink Ensure but, we have to be careful because in time her swallowing reflex will cease to function.  Right now I put a little liquid in her mouth and if she holds it I just say, "Okay Mom, ya need to swallow", and she does-everytime.  Thank God this is still working for now.  I dread the day when she won't eat or drink a thing. That may be one of  the hardest things for me to endure-pray for strength for me-I hate this disease!!   She hates to be moved, I don't know if it's pain or it startles her or what.  She needs to be moved to prevent bed sores.  Her muscles are starting to atrophy a wee bit.  She will get her legs up and crossed and it is like moving a mountain to get them un-crossed and then they quite often go back to being crossed.  Try changing a depends with that going on.  She is still smiling alot, sometimes at what we say and sometimes just for nothing and she really loves looking into the corner ( she is conversing with her angels because she almost always will utter something).  She is still trying to speak and once in awhile will come out with a real word.  We tell her constantly that it's almost time to go home and that it is totally okay with us for her to go.  I told her the other day that all of us girls are okay and not to worry about us.  So, now we wait for God to call her home.
  So now I'm going to go check her and if she is awake I'll change her and give her some yummy breakfast.  I am going to miss her so much when she is gone but, I know that I know I'll see her again soon and that she will be out of her misery and back into her mind.  Love to all.